May 26, 2022

Moka Bellaire


Mena Suvari reveals she battled a meth addiction whilst striving to cope with sexual abuse trauma

7 min read

Mena Suvari was a rising star in the late ’90s, but behind her achievement, she was quietly having difficulties with decades of recurring sexual abuse, poisonous associations, and an addiction to meth. 

The 42-yr-old actress candidly wrote about her tumultuous adolescence and the loss of her childhood in her new memoir, The Fantastic Peace, recalling how she was raped when she was 12 years aged and then turned to medication to cope.

‘I took medication to numb myself from the discomfort,’ she wrote, in accordance to United states of america Today. ‘Alcohol. Pot. Coke. Crystal meth. Acid. Ecstasy. Mushrooms. Mescaline. It was my way of detaching from the hell of my existence — and surviving.’ 

Candid: Mena Suvari, 42, has opened up about her addiction to meth as a teen actress in her new memoir, The Fantastic Peace, which was released on Tuesday 

Trauma: Suvari (pictured in 1999) said she was raped by her brother's friend at age 12 and was repeatedly sexually abused. She turned to drugs to help cope with the pain

Trauma: Suvari (pictured in 1999) explained she was raped by her brother’s mate at age 12 and was frequently sexually abused. She turned to medication to aid cope with the pain 

Suvari explained that immediately after her household moved to Charleston, South Carolina, her middle brother’s good friend, KJ, started off having an desire in her, irrespective of currently being him currently being a few decades older and in superior faculty. 

‘No a single stopped him from getting alone with me in my bed room. No a person cautioned me. No one inquired when he became a lot more my pal than my brother’s. No a single questioned what we talked about or what we did alongside one another all working day,’ she wrote. ‘I was constantly left to my have gadgets.’

The The united states Beauty star reported KJ wrote her really like letters, referred to as her each day, and would generally appear to her property to see her, offering her the consideration she desperately craved. 

She in-depth how KJ initially coerced her to kiss him, generating her doubt her hesitation and insisting she was all set. This became a sample as he additional pushed her sexual boundaries.  

Suvari stated that just one month in advance of her 13th birthday, she and KJ ended up building out in his dwelling room when he pulled out a condom. She was adamant that she did not want to drop her virginity, and he place it away, declaring: ‘Okay.’ 

Just after, he confident her to comply with him up to the secluded guest room earlier mentioned the garage. He brought out the condom again, but this time he overlooked her pleas to halt. 

‘I observed him place on the condom and felt my heart sink into a darkish abyss. And just like at the dining table again dwelling, my voice disappeared,’ she wrote. ‘No make a difference how lots of periods I mentioned, “No, I never want to do that,” and implored him not to do it, he failed to hear me. 

Looking back: The actress (pictured in 1998) recalled snorting lines in the school bathroom during breaks and how her 'entire back broke out in acne' because of the meth

Hunting again: The actress (pictured in 1998) recalled snorting strains in the university lavatory during breaks and how her ‘entire again broke out in acne’ due to the fact of the meth

Secret: Despite her addiction, Mena (pictured in 2000) said she managed to keep her grades up and pursue her acting career without anyone the wiser

Key: Despite her dependancy, Mena (pictured in 2000) claimed she managed to continue to keep her grades up and pursue her acting profession with out any individual the wiser

‘I shut my eyes, and when I opened them once again, KJ was climbing off me and walking into the lavatory to acquire off the condom. I turned on to my aspect, confront absent from him, and cried. So deeply. So comprehensive of disgrace and dread. So broken.’

Suvari reported she certain herself that KJ beloved her and anything was ‘normal.’

‘I never was all right again, since in that instant I grew to become what I thought I had allowed to take place to me,’ she wrote. 

KJ ongoing to choose her up to the visitor room for intercourse, which possible brought on her initially bladder an infection.

Seeking back again, she puzzled how her lifetime may well have been different if the health practitioner asked her if she was getting sex and if she was all right with it. Alternatively, she was provided a prescription to take care of the an infection and start handle pills — with no talking to her about what getting them intended. 

Suvari anticipated KJ to do a thing special for her 13th birthday, but he didn’t even try to see her. When she saw him the following working day on Valentine’s Day, he gave her a CD and then broke up with her. 

She stated KJ bragged about owning intercourse with her, claiming he dumped her due to the fact he was ‘bored.’ He also shamed her, contacting her a ‘whore.’ Whilst she was at an all-girls school at the time, her brother knew what KJ telling men and women and didn’t know what to feel. 

Abuse: Suvari said the entire time she was filming American Beauty (pictured with Kevin Spacey) she was submitting to her abusive boyfriend Tyler's 'demands for kinky threesomes'

Abuse: Suvari said the full time she was filming American Attractiveness (pictured with Kevin Spacey) she was distributing to her abusive boyfriend Tyler’s ‘demands for kinky threesomes’

Hard to handle: Suvari (pictured in 2002) said she was 'ready every single day to be rescued,' but 'it never happened'

Tough to take care of: Suvari (pictured in 2002) stated she was ‘ready every single one working day to be rescued,’ but ‘it never ever happened’

After she was raped, she bought drunk for the very first time and then turned to medications to cope with the shame and worthlessness she felt.   

Suvari was continue to a teenager when she moved to Hollywood, where she reported she was taken benefit of once again by a predatory manager in his mid-30s who experienced sexual intercourse with her when she was 16. 

As a college student in Burbank, California, she was addicted to meth and expended her days obtaining high. 

‘The several hours I was at college were invested considering about having out of school and doing some strains,’ she wrote in a e book excerpt published by Cosmopolitan

‘I stayed up until eventually late at evening, slept a couple hours, then repeated the working day. Ahead of prolonged I was pulling out my smaller gold lacquered butterfly embossed compact mirror and snorting a line in the faculty lavatory through a split.’

Suvari explained the meth produced her ‘hyper-aware’ but also paranoid. The drug abuse ultimately commenced to consider a bodily toll on her. 

‘My entire back again broke out in acne. I’d often had ideal pores and skin. I realized it was the meth,’ she wrote. ‘And just like prior to with the delivery handle made available in exchange for no questions questioned, I was offered antibiotics to make it ‘”absent.”‘ 

Family: Suvari married her third husband, Michael Hope, in October 2018. She found out she was pregnant with her son, Christopher, after she finished writing her memoir

Loved ones: Suvari married her 3rd husband, Michael Hope, in Oct 2018. She located out she was pregnant with her son, Christopher, following she concluded creating her memoir

Love: Suvari welcomed her son, Christopher, in April. She told ABC News that she is glad she didn't commit suicide and 'held on for him'

Appreciate: Suvari welcomed her son, Christopher, in April. She told ABC News that she is glad she did not dedicate suicide and ‘held on for him’

Despite her dependancy, she said she managed to preserve her grades up and pursue her performing vocation without the need of any one the wiser.  

‘I stayed out as a great deal as I could. And stayed substantial as a great deal as I could,’ she wrote. ‘I nevertheless did anything requested of me. Schoolwork. Auditions. Sexual intercourse. Only I experienced to know how f**ked up I was receiving every single day. 

‘I thought I could, and ought to, undergo in silence. This was definitely my fate. I prayed an individual would toss me a lifeline. I was prepared each and every one working day to be rescued. It hardly ever took place.’

At 17, she entered an abusive partnership with a gentleman named Tyler, a 26-calendar year-old lighting engineer she achieved at a rave. She recalled how she moved in with him, stating he verbally abused her and coerced her to have threesomes with females he introduced residence. 

Memories: Suvari said she felt compelled to write her memoir after going through an old bin and finding a suicide note she didn't remember writing

Recollections: Suvari explained she felt compelled to compose her memoir immediately after heading as a result of an old bin and locating a suicide observe she didn’t bear in mind creating

It was Tyler who confident her to cease abusing meth, so she smoked marijuana as an alternative, a different try to boring her suffering. 

To the outdoors earth, Suvari was the photograph of success. She turned a breakout star immediately after her breakout roles in the raunchy teenager comedy American Pie and the Oscar-winning film American Magnificence, which the two came out in 1999. 

‘The complete time I worked on “American Magnificence” I was grinding on empty: performing to perfect my element, publishing to Tyler’s calls for for kinky threesomes at minimum 3 or four moments a 7 days, and pretending in both of those conditions that every thing was all right. Except it was not,’ she wrote.  

It would choose years for her to depart Tyler, and she would go on to battle with painful recollections, medicines, monetary hardships, and unsuccessful marriages. She credited acting with giving her a reason and conserving her lifestyle.  

Suvari married her 3rd partner, Michael Hope, in Oct 2018. She uncovered out she was expecting with her son, Christopher, immediately after she concluded writing her memoir. Her baby boy was born in April of this calendar year. 

She defined in her author’s be aware that she felt compelled to publish about her life following heading by means of an outdated bin crammed with her teenage keepsakes and acquiring a suicide take note she failed to remember composing. 

‘If I experienced performed that [committed suicide] … I wouldn’t be in which I’m at and [Christopher] would not be below,’ she explained to ABC Information. ‘So I am happy I held on. I held on for him.’

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